My new year’s resolution this year was to begin journey to get healthy and lose weight. I've been working out 3-5 days a week to Jillian Michaels DVDs (if you want to sweat a lot workout to any of her DVDs. you will definitely feel the burn.). I seem to be getting really good workouts in. Then I've been really watching what I’ve been eating and trying to be mindful of what I want to get and whether or not I am actually hungry or just bored. I've noticed that a lot of the time, especially at work, I am just eating to eat. Not mindful of how the food tastes and just shoving food into my mouth.
I have to admit something though. These past two days I've slipped up. This is my pattern though. I go awesome for a few months then BAM I go off track. I'm realizing this and I don't want to repeat it and gain back little weight that I've lost so far. I didn't slip up too too bad. I just didn't make good choices. That happens. I know that I was going to eventually mess up and would have to get over the hurdle of it. Let’s take yesterday for example. I worked out to Jillian for 30 minutes and had an awesome workout. But right after I worked out Josh and I went to a Chinese Buffet and had Chinese Food. That's okay because I don’t really like Chinese Food. I didn't have a lot. Then after we got home I made cupcakes for my work's Valentine’s Day Party that we had today and I obviously needed to try them. Oh did I try them. How about 4 of them?!?! Why can't I just have 1 and be done with it? I seem to notice that once I start I can't stop. I don't know what it is. Today was a failure too.
Through the books that I have been reading lately is that it's okay to have slip ups. We all are going to have them. It's just what we do AFTER we slip up. I'm so used to beating myself up for days after and going through this downfall of poor me poor me. Which is horrible thing to do. I am realizing and God is showing me that I need to change. This is that day that the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it.
Since I’ve started working out and eating healthier I've lost 5 pounds. I'm proud of those 5 pounds. I still have a long road ahead of me but I'm glad that I'm 5 pounds down.
Friday, February 11, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Hakuna Matata "No Worries"
Anyone who knows me knows that I am a worry wart. It drives Josh insane sometimes. His famous saying to me is," you worry about things just to worry." I never really took it to heart. I always used to bother me. He didn't understand what I was worrying about and going through. That's what I would always think. But there is a reason why husbands are our heads. For situations like this. After hearing him say this for about a year (sometimes it takes a while for it to sink in. haha), I guess I began to re-evaluate if I was truly worrying about things just to worry. I began looking at my life and the situations that were happening. I worried about bills getting paid, our finances, weight loss (if i will ever lose the weight), pregnancy and our future. I started to notice that wow I am a little worry freak.
I guess it became second nature to me. I didn't know what it was like to live a worry free life. That sounds silly I know. If I wasn't worrying about anything, what was my life about? Lol.
I began searching the Lord and what the Word of God said about worry and realized that I was being kind of selfish. Selfish in the sense that I was worrying so much that I wasn't putting my faith and trust in the Lord. Plus there were things that I couldn't really control. I wasn't giving it all to God and having Him fill me with His peace.
Philippians 4 really spoke to me. This is what it says 4Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! 5Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. 6Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. 9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen n me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.10But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at last you have revived your concern for me; indeed, you were concerned before, but you lacked opportunity. 11Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. 12I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. 13I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Need I say more? This really touched my heart a lot. I wanted that peace "that surpassed all comprehension". I asked God to fill me with peace and help me to let go of my worries. I have to admit it isn't easy for me. There have been days this week when I would have gone on a worry spiral. I asked God to help me and He did fill me with peace.
It's amazing to realize the change that God is doing in my life. Change for the good. I know that the future is in Gods hands. I might not know what exactly He is doing, but knowing that He is in control and I'm not. So it is better. He is the creator, right?
Anyone who is out there reading this, maybe you are a worry wart like me. Maybe you worry about anything and everything. My hope for you is that you will find peace that surpasses all understanding.
I guess it became second nature to me. I didn't know what it was like to live a worry free life. That sounds silly I know. If I wasn't worrying about anything, what was my life about? Lol.
I began searching the Lord and what the Word of God said about worry and realized that I was being kind of selfish. Selfish in the sense that I was worrying so much that I wasn't putting my faith and trust in the Lord. Plus there were things that I couldn't really control. I wasn't giving it all to God and having Him fill me with His peace.
Philippians 4 really spoke to me. This is what it says 4Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice! 5Let your gentle spirit be known to all men. The Lord is near. 6Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. 8Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. 9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen n me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.10But I rejoiced in the Lord greatly, that now at last you have revived your concern for me; indeed, you were concerned before, but you lacked opportunity. 11Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. 12I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need. 13I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.
Need I say more? This really touched my heart a lot. I wanted that peace "that surpassed all comprehension". I asked God to fill me with peace and help me to let go of my worries. I have to admit it isn't easy for me. There have been days this week when I would have gone on a worry spiral. I asked God to help me and He did fill me with peace.
It's amazing to realize the change that God is doing in my life. Change for the good. I know that the future is in Gods hands. I might not know what exactly He is doing, but knowing that He is in control and I'm not. So it is better. He is the creator, right?
Anyone who is out there reading this, maybe you are a worry wart like me. Maybe you worry about anything and everything. My hope for you is that you will find peace that surpasses all understanding.
Friday, January 14, 2011
Consistancy
God is showing me that I need to live a life of consistancy. When I was working at a high school, the teacher I was working with in the classroom told me that consistancy is key when dealing with teens (especially the program I was working in). I know that consistancy is key for success in really anything. I didn't apply what I do every day at work in my own personal life. I am not consistant. I stop doing it. When the going gets tough, it's easier to just give up. Trust me, I've given up plenty of time. I'm sick of giving up.
I need to be more consistant in my health. Here's why. I have a tendency to go on a diet plan for a month or two then I just stop. I was on Weight Watchers for about a year then stopped going because I knew how to do mostly everything. I was losing weight on my own. I thought to myself, "Why am I going to a place where I have to pay for someone to weight me when I can weight myself at home??" So I stopped going. It seems like every since then, my weight has been up and down. I know what I have to do to lose weight!!! BUT I have a ton of excuses. I know that if I keep doing this to my body down the road I will start having medical problems.
Each day is a new day! A new day that He has made and I must rejoice and be glad in it. If I look at this day right in front of me, I have nothing to be concerned about. I have to get off my butt and do the workouts that I don't necessarily like doing (if you want a killer workout try any workout DVD from Jillian Michaels). I know that He is my God and will be able to be with me every step of the way. Happy Consistancy to Me!!!
I need to be more consistant in my health. Here's why. I have a tendency to go on a diet plan for a month or two then I just stop. I was on Weight Watchers for about a year then stopped going because I knew how to do mostly everything. I was losing weight on my own. I thought to myself, "Why am I going to a place where I have to pay for someone to weight me when I can weight myself at home??" So I stopped going. It seems like every since then, my weight has been up and down. I know what I have to do to lose weight!!! BUT I have a ton of excuses. I know that if I keep doing this to my body down the road I will start having medical problems.
Each day is a new day! A new day that He has made and I must rejoice and be glad in it. If I look at this day right in front of me, I have nothing to be concerned about. I have to get off my butt and do the workouts that I don't necessarily like doing (if you want a killer workout try any workout DVD from Jillian Michaels). I know that He is my God and will be able to be with me every step of the way. Happy Consistancy to Me!!!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Faith and Hope
This past year was full of blessings and trials. Josh got a job at my work (well that was the end of last year but still). God is really blessing us in the fact that we are being favored and honored in the hard work that we do. Plus, two incomes coming in steadily is really awesome. It's great that it finally happend. Josh was out of a job for about over a year. That was really stressful and was really hard on our marriage. I truly believe that the Lord was testing us in every possible way. Through the time I felt that we were being stripped away from what was the norm. The only way I can describe it is like a piece if skin. A layer falls off. God pulled a layer of skin to show us who He is. We had to have 100% faith in what God's word said. One scripture that got me through that time was Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know that plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." The fact that the Lord has already set forth plans for Josh and I is an amazing. he knows the beginning and end and everything inbetween. I guess I never truly understood it until the trial came and the going got tough.
Sometimes when you are going through a storm like Josh and I went through for that year, your eye can be so closed in to what is going on and miss on what God is doing. But God is good and He brought us through it. Not to say we didn't need any help. Both of our parents got us through that year. We are eternally gratefull. We would have been on the streets if it wasn't for them.
Once we went through it though I have to say, "I think I would go through it again." Some people might say, "Beth are you crazy?" Yeah a little but that's another story. Lol. It made me a better person than I was. Before I was an angry and selfish person. Seeing how God provides for His people my pride was stripped down and I appreciated people a lot more. I'm not going to say now that I'm 100% perfect. But you know what? I'm a lot better off than where I was. I think it was totally what God needed to show me. That He will provide all of my needs and beyond.
Another hope for this year is for Josh and I to get pregnant. We have been trying for over a year. Trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and nothing is working. It is an emotional rollercoaster ride for me. As a woman when you can't get pregnant right away, I was thinking that something must be wrong with me. Every month that passed by I felt was a let down. it seemed also that everyone else around me was getting pregnant, too. In November and December I went to the doctors and got all the tests done to see if we could get pregnant. Get this? I am a female and can get pregnant!!!!!! YAY!!!! That sounds funny I know but it was such a sigh of relief. When you're on "baby making mode" all you can think about is timing and trying. Then months that pass by is...............emotional...... When it doesn't happen right away it can be sooooooo frustrating!! Here's the thing though. God is good.
A couple of months after Josh and I met we went to a confrence to see David Wagner, who is an amazing preacher!! This was that first time I was at a service where the presence of God was so thick. We were sitting in the last row (hopefully I wouldn't get picked to come up and have him pray over us). Well, we were called up so he could pray over us. He told us that we were going to have 3 children. Boy girl boy. I was taken back because that day Josh and I were talking about how many children we wanted. I said 4 and Josh said 2. God met us half way. That was 5 years ago. Honestly there are months that go by that the word David W gave us is the only thing holding us together. We know that the Lord has promised us children and he will give it to us on His timing. Not ours. I think we are to a point of rest. Rest in knowing that everything God gives to us is good.
Here is my New Years resolution for the year!!! Happy New Year (even though its the 13th).
1. To be more consistant with my time with God and in the Word
2. Be a better wife (even though I am good right now!!) Haha!
3. Be better at keeping the apartment clean
4. Lose weight and be healthy so we can get pregnant
5. Be more assertive
6. Start saving money
Sometimes when you are going through a storm like Josh and I went through for that year, your eye can be so closed in to what is going on and miss on what God is doing. But God is good and He brought us through it. Not to say we didn't need any help. Both of our parents got us through that year. We are eternally gratefull. We would have been on the streets if it wasn't for them.
Once we went through it though I have to say, "I think I would go through it again." Some people might say, "Beth are you crazy?" Yeah a little but that's another story. Lol. It made me a better person than I was. Before I was an angry and selfish person. Seeing how God provides for His people my pride was stripped down and I appreciated people a lot more. I'm not going to say now that I'm 100% perfect. But you know what? I'm a lot better off than where I was. I think it was totally what God needed to show me. That He will provide all of my needs and beyond.
Another hope for this year is for Josh and I to get pregnant. We have been trying for over a year. Trying and trying and trying and trying and trying and nothing is working. It is an emotional rollercoaster ride for me. As a woman when you can't get pregnant right away, I was thinking that something must be wrong with me. Every month that passed by I felt was a let down. it seemed also that everyone else around me was getting pregnant, too. In November and December I went to the doctors and got all the tests done to see if we could get pregnant. Get this? I am a female and can get pregnant!!!!!! YAY!!!! That sounds funny I know but it was such a sigh of relief. When you're on "baby making mode" all you can think about is timing and trying. Then months that pass by is...............emotional...... When it doesn't happen right away it can be sooooooo frustrating!! Here's the thing though. God is good.
A couple of months after Josh and I met we went to a confrence to see David Wagner, who is an amazing preacher!! This was that first time I was at a service where the presence of God was so thick. We were sitting in the last row (hopefully I wouldn't get picked to come up and have him pray over us). Well, we were called up so he could pray over us. He told us that we were going to have 3 children. Boy girl boy. I was taken back because that day Josh and I were talking about how many children we wanted. I said 4 and Josh said 2. God met us half way. That was 5 years ago. Honestly there are months that go by that the word David W gave us is the only thing holding us together. We know that the Lord has promised us children and he will give it to us on His timing. Not ours. I think we are to a point of rest. Rest in knowing that everything God gives to us is good.
Here is my New Years resolution for the year!!! Happy New Year (even though its the 13th).
1. To be more consistant with my time with God and in the Word
2. Be a better wife (even though I am good right now!!) Haha!
3. Be better at keeping the apartment clean
4. Lose weight and be healthy so we can get pregnant
5. Be more assertive
6. Start saving money
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